~LaB_RaT~

Its 5am and the bloody birds are chirping… one day i shall kill them all with a flame thrower…. -_-" Its all nice and lovely when you’ve had enough sleep and no stress of course. Right now, i have little patience for anything.

On the bright side, it looks like it will be a beautiful day in Vancouver, then again you never know… Ah Vancouver, where moss should be its national flower, i predict that one day the entire city will rust shut.

Today is the day I finally get to watch Hayao Miyazaki’s "Howl’s Moving Castle." I have been waiting to watch it for oh… 6 months… Could be more… lost track… (Welcome to Vancouver… The land where "Gongfu Hussle" JUST CAME OUT). Ok, so the Canadians are little behind when it comes to Asian movies. Not to mention paperbacks as well. Would you believe "Da Vinci Code" is STILL in hard-bound. yeeeah…

On the other hand, i don’t think there is any other place on the west coast that has Vancouver’s amazing sunsets. I think today i shall sit at the beach for a while after watching my movie. I have to admit, Vancouver is great for nature. I saw a blue jay and a red robin in my backyard. Its something different, we don’t have robins or blue jays where i come from.

Of course, the number and variety of spiders i have in my house is also quite amazing… i have mixed feelings about that. I’ve counted 8 different types of spiders (and we’re not talking about the harmless ol’ little daddy longlegs here… we’re talking big hairy and freaky looking.) Yeap, its 8 and counting… I’m sure there are more, i’m not going to go out of my way to find out just how many kinds of spiders i have in my house and yard… I really don’t want to know… well, at least the birds will eat the spiders in the yard…

Good morning, tis 4am in the morning and i have an exam in 5 hours… wooop de dooo. Needless to say, I haven’t started studying. No! Yours truly decides to cook. At bloody 2am I’m in the kitchen and instead of reading about "Asian Theatre" I am peeling prawns for my "Butter Prawn Pasta." (it was very good).

And now, at 4am I am sitting here writing nonsense on my blog. Yes, clearly I am not in the right frame of mind. (and hence the title… I am doomed and yes, that would put one in a fairly gloomy state of mind)

Oh woe is me… -_-"

I just don’t want to look at my readings. There are way too many so I guess I’ll kind of flip through them in an attempt to make myself feel good… after all I did "try."

Maybe i should have more coffee… and sit outside in the garden for a bit to get some "fresh air." But no, i’d probably only get mauled by a bear or something and it is pretty damn dark out there… yes, there are bears where i live… tends to make you pretty damn nervous when you’re stepping outside at 3 am to have a quick smoke. The fact that my house is surrounded by a fairly thick patch of trees and its pitch black outside doesn’t help. (ah, for the sake of nicotine, one must make sacrifices)…

Ah well… enough of doom and gloom. Should hit the books in attempt to redeem myself… after i have a breath of fresh air… maybe…

Hello hello,

The elusive rat is back in her cage… so much for self-imposed exile, everything just comes crumbling down. Too bad the ostrich theory doesn’t really work… (if i stick my head in the hole in the ground, then nobody will see me.)

Anyways, I have come to a very sad realization. I think i really am doomed to a life of singlehood. How do I know this? Well, I’ve come up with a short list… "You know you are doomed to life of Singlehood when:"

1. Cute guy (cute fireman to be exact… cute straight fireman) walks up to you with a big smile on his face and you pivot on one foot, turn around and walk in the opposite direction. Making him wonder if he insulted you in some way and making you look like the biggest moron that walked the earth.

2. Cute English guy comes into the cafe you work in and because you are working at the till you have to deal with him. The minute he opens his mouth and speaks in that gorgeous little accent your mind goes blank, you suddenly can’t tell left from right and you charge him $7 instead of $17 for his order. And all because you were taken in by those pretty little blue eyes and Brit accent. THEN while you prepare his order, you get the order WRONG and make him a nice fancy shmancy dessert which wasn’t what he ordered. (the plus is that he tells you it looks really good and gives you a wink before he goes off).

3. Cute preppy Japanese guy speaks to you, your mind goes utterly blank and you’ve left your tongue somewhere else. Keeping in mind that you are supposed to be fluent in Japanese because… oh you’re supposed to be minoring in the damn language and you’ve only studied it for 7 years. Not to mention your face turns as red as a beet and you stutter like a dumbstruck fool. (yes, very attractive).

4. You see your very handsome and brilliant classmate walking towards you from a distance, you stiffen like a pole-axed cow and your next reaction is to bolt and hide. And then when he enters the lounge where you’ve been hiding in a corner, you mumble some obscure greeting before bolting out of the building. (brilliant, i must say)

Yes, these are just 4 instances. I’m sure there are many many more that i can’t recall… or don’t want to recall… Doomed to a life of Singlehood…